Keeping The Light Shining…

‘Integrity turns the light on’

To be a open and honest channel for loving healing energy, I have to keep the light shining within me. And that means I live a life that is simple, basic and without drama, whenever possible. I spend my days working, walking, painting, talking, listening to music, connecting with spirit, and thinking. I think a lot. At least an hour of my morning is sat in my wicker chair by the wood burner. It is a place where I can really connect with spirit. I receive so much information and inspiration sat in that chair. Mainly about work, life and what to write.

Mostly my life revolves around my spiritual work, and my spiritual practices. I didn’t intend it to be that way, it just happened. When it was suggested to me many years ago that I was a Healer, I never realised then what my life was to become. It just feels so natural now, and because of that I have to make sure that I keep my vibration really high, and not to allow anyone or anything to dim my light. Without the light I can’t work, I can’t feel or sense the energies, and I can’t hear spirit.

At sometime during my day I will do a meditation. I like to listen to ‘I am’ Wishes Fulfilled by Wayne Dyer. It is a beautiful meditation that really touches my soul. As soon as I start to listen to it, I feel the energies of my guides all around me. By the time the 40 minutes is up, I feel uplifted and illuminated. And I always feel like I have received a healing session from my guides.

Being out in nature keeps me very grounded. There is something really wonderful about going for a lovely walk surrounded by nature. I love walking in the mountains, by the ocean, or in woods and forests. There is something about the smell of clear mountain air, or the saltiness of the ocean breeze, or the earthy smell of wooded areas, that just fill my heart and soul with peace and light. When I am filled with light I know that I am living an honest and authentic life. Because integrity is what turns the light on.

New Beginnings……

‘Every new day gives us the opportunity to change things’

Every new day can be a ‘New Beginning’ if we want it to be. We can change the things we don’t like, we get to choose what we want, and who we want to be. Our lives are not set in stone, but our minds can be. We have the power within us to change our lives, if only we would realise that. Our belief systems, and our self limiting beliefs can cripple us.

If only we realised that our thoughts control everything. Then every new day brings endless possibilities of growth and change. We are the ones in control, change your thoughts, change your life, ‘The thoughts I choose create the live I live’. It is not about living a perfect life, but an imperfect one, that brings you joy, and fulfilment, and is authentic.

Everyday I get to choose how my day pans out. Every morning I sit in my wicker chair by the wood burner. Mug of tea in hand, I reflect on the previous day. Did I go walking with Gracie, did I meditate, was I a kind loving soul, and so on. I spend a lot of time sitting in that chair, contemplating life. I can lose many hours sat in that chair. It is a place that is calm and peaceful, sat there looking out at nature. It is a place that helps me to evaluate my life, and work on the parts of me and my life that require change.

Every new day allows us to make small changes to our lives. Small slow changes, that over time create lasting change, and movement towards the lives we wish to create. So actually, what a wonderful gift we have been given everyday – the gift of ‘New Beginnings’.

Looking Back …….

‘Looking back shows me how far I have come, and how I got here’

It’s hard sometimes to look back on a life that has been before. I try not to do it too often, but sometimes I do take a peak. Just to remember how I got here. When you look back you can see the patterns and the sequences of life. The love, the joy, the pain, and the mistakes. Mistakes I’ve made a few, many, many mistakes. And too many failures I care to mention. But if you aren’t failing, you aren’t trying. Failure is the foundation of success. When I fail it moves me closer to who I am.

As I get older the realisation of our lives, and why we are here is self evident. We go from experience to experience, good and bad. We never stop growing or learning. By looking back and reflecting we can see what area of our lives needs work, and what area of our lives is looking pretty good. When I am going through a difficult experience, I ask myself ‘What do I need to learn from this’. And when I am going through a lovely experience, I ask myself ‘What am I being taught about love’.

If you could see your whole life from start to finish would you change things? I wouldn’t change a thing, because I am who I am. What I have gone through in this life time was meant to teach me how to be kind, loving and compassionate. And it has certainly done that. When I look back on my life, I think to live is to love, and to love is what wakes us up.

Letting go

‘Confusion is the Universe saying follow me’

Sometimes in life not everything is meant to be. It doesn’t matter how much we may want something. Letting go of expectation and an outcome, is so very hard to do. If we listen to ourselves in the silence, we do hear the answers. But we may not like what we hear. The one thing I have really learnt in my life is that you cannot control anything, apart from the thoughts in your mind.

I really don’t think much about the future anymore, and what it will be. Instead I take everyday as a new beginning, and what will be will be. It is very freeing when you can just surrender and let go. I have no idea where my life is going, and I am ok with that. I have my work as an Energy Healer and my painted stones. They will take me where I need to go. My destination is unclear, but I trust in the Universe to guide me there.

Being an Energy Healer

‘When I am my authentic self, my world makes sense’

I believe I was born a Healer, it is definitely my life purpose, my reason for being born on this earth at this time. To bring sunshine and light into the world, and raise the consciousness of others. I can see now, how being that little girl of 4 years of age, who used to sneak out of the house, and go ‘walking and talking’, knew what she was doing and why she was here. She was full of light and purpose, and that is when it all began.

Being an Energy Healer, is not about self, but about being of service to others. To be a channel of loving healing energy. To be a trusted friend, a confidant, and above all to be authentic, honest and true.

I think there is often a misconception about what an Energy Healer, can and can’t do. We do not and cannot heal. We act as channels, that allows loving healing energy to come through our bodies, and then we pass that energy onto our clients, by using our hands, on or above their body, and our minds. We are the messengers not the message. Once the client receives the energy from the Healer, our jobs as Healers is complete. The clients body decides, along with God/The Universe, or whatever you may wish to call the Life Force Energy, what to do with the loving healing energy, and where in the body that energy goes.

When I am preparing for a healing session with a client. I set an intention that I wish to be the best possible channel to receive the healing energy, and that I may pass it onto my client, in a loving and respectful way. I call in my guides and healing energies. And I ask that my healing space is surrounded and bathed in protection and love. I also ask if the guides and the passed love ones of the person who is going to be having a healing session, wish to assist me.

When the session begins, my client will lay fully clothed on a massage type table, and I cover them with a blanket, if they wish. It is always my intention that my client feels comfortable and safe. I am a Healer that is very intuitive, and empathetic, and I receive guidance that is clear and precise. No two healing sessions are alike. The healing session is geared around the individual and what they need. Although I completed my Reiki 1 and Reiki 2 training many years ago. The energy that I channel now, is via my guides and energies of light. The Reiki healing training was a stepping stone to the Healer that I am now. And when you really think about it, Reiki is just a word, the healing energies come from God/The Universe, or whatever you identify as Life Force Energy.

A healing session really is a beautiful experience. We all have, busy lives, so it is a wonderful stress reliever. It promotes and aids healing in your body. It can also create a really moving and spiritual experience, where you connect to yourself and the universe. And generally it promotes a sense of well being.

I am always guided by spirit to which part of my clients body they want me to work on. I don’t have any set routine. Spirit guides me and I respond. I also feel the energies that are working with me, and I find that very comforting to know that I/we are not alone. The session generally lasts about an hour, but I don’t clock watch. The client is given the time they need. And I have found that clients really appreciate not being rushed. Generally energy healing and counselling, go hand in hand. When clients come to see me for a healing session, they always want to chat, about their lives and the difficulties they are having. So most healing sessions have both elements, a healing session and counselling.

Although most of my healing sessions are conducted in a healing space, many times they can happen when I am out and about. Guidance can come to me from spirit, at different times and in different settings. I could be out walking in nature, and I am called to comfort someone who has lost their dog. I have been on a ferry travelling, when I have been asked to give a healing session to a lady suffering from Multiple Sclerosis. That was very interesting, finding the Captain of the ship, and explaining to him why I needed a cabin, so that I could conduct a healing session for this lady. I have also been called upon to help a man, again on a ferry, to help him with his life purpose. Life as an Energy Healer is never dull. It is extremely rewarding, and I always feel privileged to be of service to others. Part of being an Energy Healer has meant that I have also learnt to embrace my uniqueness and difference.

From the beginning – Part 3

‘If I open my eyes to the Truth, all I will see is the Truth’

My Dad, and Me, with Ben

A few weeks before Kieran and I moved to Keswick, I went up there for a few days to secure a job and somewhere for us to live. Keswick is a place where long term accommodation isn’t so easy to find. So I decided to find accommodation and a job in Penrith which is 18 miles away. And then once living in Penrith, I would be able to make plans for us to move to Keswick. Because living locally made it a lot easier to find the illusive accommodation in Keswick, than trying to do it 200 miles away in Nottingham. I found a job in a pub, as a chef. I had taken various catering courses in Nottingham, which came in handy when I was looking for a job. I also managed to secure a small flat for us to live in. So with the job and the flat in place, we were able to move a few weeks later.

While we were waiting to move, I had a phone call from the landlady of the flat I was going to rent. It wasn’t available anymore, but she assured me she had another place that was suitable for us to move into. So I accepted it without seeing it. My brother drove us to Penrith with our belongings. When I got to see the flat that the landlady had assured me was a suitable place to bring up a child, it was anything but suitable. So I couldn’t take it. So now our plans were in chaos. I decided that Kieran and I would stay the weekend in Keswick, so I could think about what to do. I decided we had to return to Nottingham, we didn’t have anywhere to live. So the next morning we left the B&B that we had been staying in, and made our way to the bus station, to get the bus to Penrith, then the train back to Nottingham. As we were walking through the town, I noticed a small shop was open, selling newspapers and sweets. So I bought myself the local newspaper ‘The Keswick Reminder’, and some sweets for Kieran for the journey. As we were walking I flipped the paper over onto the back page, and there in black letters was ‘Room For Rent’. So I phoned the number, and explained my situation. And after viewing the room, a few hours later, we had somewhere to live. I said a silent ‘thank you’ to the universe for helping me and my son. I quickly found a job in Keswick, and so our life there had begun.

It wasn’t easy for both of us in the beginning. It was lonely and uncomfortable. We didn’t know anyone. But slowly as time went on we settled into life there. We both made friends, and we enjoyed the lovely walks and the wonderful nature, that this beautiful town had to offer. A few months after we moved to Keswick, I rented a lovely cottage in Portinscale, and went to work for a local hotel as a Pastry Chef.

I loved my job at the hotel, I really had a flair for breads, cakes, and desserts. I was still struggling with the anxiety and the confusion, but did my best to hide it. When I was on my own I would crumble. I knew there was something I needed to remember but I didn’t know what it was. Things were going really well for Kieran. A local neighbour had asked him if he wanted to help her with her dogs and small holding, where she had horses and pigs. And as it turned out he was a real natural around horses. And so at the age of 10, he decided he wanted to be a Vet.


We lived in the cottage for a few years, then we were offered accommodation that was permanent. Kieran was excelling at school, and had started playing rugby, which he loved. We moved into our new flat, that was only a short walk away from Keswick town. So life was fairly settled. It still had it’s moments of loneliness, confusion and anxiety. But I was happy because my son was doing well, he was working towards his dream to become a vet, which I totally supported him in.

In 2004, I saw an advert for a job in a local shop called ‘The Rock Shop’. It sold crystals, fossils, books, gemstones, and jewellery. I applied for the job and got it. I didn’t realise the impact that this job was going to have on me. Nothing was going to be the same again. It was a very soothing place to work. I learnt about rocks and crystals, which I enjoyed. I got to chat a lot with the customers, it was a very friendly place. But something weird started to happen. Random people would come into the shop and tell me I was a Healer, I insisted I wasn’t. I didn’t even know what being a ‘Healer’ even meant. One day this beautiful woman came into the shop, I think she was Italian. She was just looking at me and smiling, and she said ‘You are Healer’, I said ‘No I am not’, she said ‘Yes you are, and it is time you accepted it’, and then she left the shop.

Over the next few months I read about what an Energy Healer was, and I was adamant I wasn’t one, and if I was I didn’t want anything to do with it. By now it was early 2005, and I had an uneasy feeling that my Dad was going to die. I don’t know why I felt that, I just had a knowing that this would be his last year on this earth. He was a very keen gardener, and I just had this feeling that I wanted to send him flower seeds, so he could plant them in his garden. So week after week I would send him a few packets of seeds. I went to visit him in June for a few weeks, and the garden was just over flowing in beautiful flowers, from the seeds I had sent him. My Mum said the garden had never looked so lovely, and that made me happy. I was glad that I had acted on my intuition to send my Dad all those seeds. He died on New Years Eve 2005.

In early January 2006, I was at work, when this man and his wife came into the shop (Ron and Marilyn). He stood there looking at me, and I thought ‘Oh no not this again’. He told me ‘I was a Healer’, and he asked me to turn around so my back was facing him. He put his hand on the middle of my spine, but not touching my skin, and said ‘ Wow, you are a very strong Healer’, he called his wife over and said ‘ Marilyn, come and feel this’, and she said ‘Oh my gosh’. I talked with Ron and Marilyn for some time about being a Energy Healer, and about doing a Reiki 1 & 2 course. I promised them that I would take the courses. I still didn’t believe I was a Healer, but I thought I will do the Reiki 1 course, and nothing will happen, and I can then tell anyone who mentions that I am a Healer that they were wrong all along. How wrong I was, I was about to turn my whole life upside down, and I didn’t even know it ………….

My Dad and Kieran

Tree-spired Stones

‘When I trust the universe, a whole new world opens up’

My Painted Stones

I like to paint stones, mainly tree inspired, hence Tree-spired. I never really thought I was the creative type, I know I am an Energy Healer, but painting just wasn’t on my radar. I painted years ago with my son when he was small, but since then – nothing.

About 8 months or so ago, I suddenly had this desire to paint, it kept popping into my head. I dismissed it at first, but then I found myself checking out paint brushes and paint on Amazon, so I decided to buy some. So the desire to paint was getting stronger and stronger, but I had no idea what I was going to paint. The universe soon provided the answer.

I was out walking one morning in Keswick with my dog Gracie. I was walking over the suspension bridge on the way to Portinscale. I just happened to look down and at my feet was a painted stone that said ‘You Matter’. I was feeling a little down that morning, and to see the brightly painted stone lifted my mood, and the seed was firmly planted into my heart.

So I set about collecting stones from the local riverbed, and I started to paint. I now mainly paint trees and inspirational words. I leave the stones in beautiful places for others to find, in the hope that they brighten up their day and make them smile, like the stone did on the morning I was feeling down.

But something wonderful happened to me when I started to paint my stones. Suddenly I was filled with such peace and tranquillity, and I wasn’t expecting that. When I am painting I always feel present, I am not thinking about the past or the future, all I am thinking about is what I am painting in that moment. As I have said, I never thought I was a creative person, just goes to show, we all have hidden talents and gifts.

My Painted Stones