‘I am all I will ever need’
I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but life sucks sometimes. Most of the time life isn’t an easy ride. It can be painful and hard, and if that wasn’t enough people can and will let you down. People sometimes think because you are very spiritual and wise that you have all the answers, that your life is all strawberries and cream, and love and light. Well it’s not. I wish I could say that when you become awakened to the realities of life, that things change for the better. Actually they don’t. In fact your life becomes harder because you know what is out there, and you know all of this reality is just pure nonsense.
You have to learn to really rely on yourself, to really have your own back. Because the chances are most of your friends and family will still be asleep to the realities of life. So you find yourself alone, an outcast, and that is when the real work begins. Once you have opened the box you can’t put it back, authenticity is calling you, and keeps calling until you listen. You soon work out that you have to be all you will ever need.
We are all spiritual people, just most of us don’t realise that, and the ones that do carry the burden of knowledge. Never really feeling like you fit in, because for the most part you don’t. We live in a society that is fake, and is built on lies and greed. When you know the truth about life how do you fit into that. I think one of the hardest parts of living in this world is to be really honest with yourself about how your life is going to be. I knew that by being authentically me I would lose friends and family. It can be a heavy price to pay for living in the truth.
I didn’t realise how much I would lose, and if I am honest there is a part of me that had I known what the price was for my awakened state, I would have kept the lid on the box shut. The world owes you nothing. We are here to create our lives, and through a lifetime we start over many times. I have had to start my life again, without many of the people that I love, because they turned their back on me. Does it mean you should become angry and bitter? No. It means becoming the opposite of what you receive, you forgive and you continue to love them. And in time you see that, that is real spiritual growth. But sometimes, just sometimes you wish for the life you had before.
There is no going back, you can only move forward in your life, and deal with whatever life throws at you. The only person that you can really rely on is you, and the only person you will ever need is you.